BrainWandering #14

Posted on November 4, 2009

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It’s a novel thought to realize that maybe – just maybe – you’re not someone who is perpetually in need of repair.

What if the real grunt work of self-improvement is simply being acutely aware of the things one thinks, feels, says and does?

I decided to put this thought to the test by making myself aware of the first feeling that came along. As it turned out, my first brain guest was the feeling of horny (imagine my surprise). I was aware that I was horny. But, my awareness told me I was not so much horny as lonely. And the loneliness was really just a deep-seeded fear that I am unworthy of being loved

Suddenly, I no longer felt horny. Now I felt hungry. But not so much hungry as impatient.  And not so much impatient as irritated.  And not so much irritated as sad. And the sadness was really just a deep-seeded fear that I am unworthy of being loved … by anyone. Which caused me to no longer feel sad.

Now I feel insane. But, that’s okay because I’m aware of it.

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